“Sometimes I’m sorry doesn’t always cut it, Maybe because we use it so many different ways… As a weapon… as an excuse… But when we are really sorry, we use it right when we mean it. Our Actions say what word never can When we get it right, I’m sorry is perfect. When we get it right, I’m sorry is redemption.” The quote above is a from this weeks show “Grey’s Anatomy” (one of my favorite shows) Some of my thoughts are: I’m sorry means nothing when the person doesn’t really mean it, when they say they have no words. I’m sorry means nothing when they say it because they feel they have to say it. When they say it because they feel it’s the proper thing to do, because they feel otherwise everyone will look at them badly if they don’t say it. I’m sorry means nothing unless if comes from deep inside, when it comes from the heart. However……. I’m sorry means something when the person fights to keep your friendship / relationship. When they open up and be honest (well hopefully) and real with you, when they end the lies and try to make a fresh start. I’m sorry means something when they chase you down begging for your forgiveness, and really mean it. I’m sorry means something when they know how bad they messed up and truly understand the pain they have caused. So where am I…..
Right now…. I think Maurice is truly sorry…well, at least most of the time I do….. So now I am working on where does it go from here. I’ll have to do another blog on forgiveness…. I’m not there yet… don’t give me the quote “Unforgiveness is like drinking poison and hoping the other person gets sick." I’ve been given that quote numerous times…..Darn you OPRAH, everyone watched that @#&* show where Oprah said that….. Forgiveness is a whole another ball park….It’s hard to forgive when it is fresh and raw…… It’s hard to forgive someone that you feel is not truly sorry to you. It’s hard to forgive someone you can’t trust. It’s hard to forgive someone that you can’t look them in their face without wanting to punch them or throw up at the sight of them. But hopefully one day I will be able to get there….. right now I am not there. Right now I need lots of distance between me and “her”…. Actually both the “hers” involved.(Lauren and Becky) Blog Disclaimer: Just to clear up some concerns with some of my readers… I am an open book about life on my blogs, it's the good, the bad and the Ugly... it's what I do, it's what I have always done... unfortunately this is the Ugly and it needs to come out... I use my blogs to vent and let people know what is going on in my life... I am doing what I need to do that is best for me. I am not trying to blog at anyone However, things might get uncomfortably real so if that’s a problem with you, if you don’t want to know about my life, then you might think about quit reading my blog, or un-friend me or everyone involved. | 
